I got a few cheeky texts and IMs today, to the tune of wishing me “Selamat Hari Guru”. I know what you all wanted me to scream.. you wanted me to say, “Tapi aku bukan cikgu!!” kan .. kan… kan. Which in a way is true. I don’t see myself as a ‘cikgu’, but not because I am a snob (yes, I am one really, cultured, manicured and pedicured, but not in this context) and I think of the profession as one being beneath me. Au contraire, I think I am not privileged enough to consider myself as one, because really, all I do is turn up at the lecture theaters for 2 hours a week, deliver prepared material and set exam questions I myself can’t remember how to answer. The rest of the time, I am either reading up for a research project, or finishing a paper which, in the infinite wisdom of others in my SBP generation, I have left to the very last possible minute to do so. I am more a student than a teacher, a research than a lecturer, a slacker than a worker. I am not worthy of the title cikgu, because I don’t devote nearly as enough time as I should to educate. I merely deliver.
Although I did say to a friend earlier, maybe they should call the day “Hari Pendidik” so it could encapsulate everyone else who’s job spec fits the gamut of definitions that encompass the phrase, ‘to teach’. But I think I take that back. I think teachers, i.e. those who work day in, day out, determining the shape of the nation’s future for pay that is never commensurate with the effort, blood, sweat, tears and most of all, love that they pour into their career, deserve a day of their own. One day, out of 365, to commemorate the people without whom, corny or not, let’s face it, even the best of us would not be here. Okay, so there are lousy teachers, and believe you me, I’ve had my share of those sadistic enough their mere name sends shudders down my spine even today. But let’s not let them eclipse that one kind soul or maybe three, who took time out to see to it that recalcitrant, defiant, obstinate teenagers not unlike the ones we all were were steered with a firm but gentle hand.
Me, I hardly teach. I mean, I don’t nurture and I don’t care. Not like the ones who got me here. I hate it when people say, those who can’t, teach. Or that teaching is a second-rate job for people who can’t get jobs elsewhere. It takes a lot of sacrifice, a lot of guts and a lot of selflessness to become a teacher. On par, if not equal to, jobs that pay ten times as much in the corporate sector.
Me? Teacher? I am not worthy.
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You’re so inside in my head I don’t know how to get rid of you anymore. So just stay there, and keep me company. Duduk diam-diam, okay, teman aku buat kerja lagi bagus.
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On the one had Denmark had the offensive Muhammad cartoons. On the other they have Asmaa Abdol-Hamid. One wonders how our sexist MPs would fare, if we had her with Nurul Izzah alongside Fong Po Kuan in parliament.
Best bit: “Some Muslims don’t think it’s right for a female to act like this [contest for a parliament seat]. They go to my father and tell him, get her married, get her married,” she laughs. Heh.
1. Comment by Faiez
16/May/2007 at 3:52 pm
Thanks for reminding me about today Iddy! I totally forgot! I need to wish a teacher, the one teacher yg jasanya aku kenang sampai bila2!
Well, maybe you are not a teacher in the sense you’ve explained. But I think there is at least one soul out there, somewhere that regards you as one.
(Aku dlm mode skema today)
2. Comment by Spena
16/May/2007 at 4:33 pm
OMG!OMG! When I read your writing, then I realised I’m in the same position. Got an sms from the basketballers wishing me ‘Selamat Hari Guru’ and it didn’t even occur to me a coach is also like a cikgu!!
3. Comment by Yani
17/May/2007 at 1:25 am
that’s right.. teachers are way, wayy underrated. partly because there are so many of them who aren’t fit to be teachers but go into the profession anyway out of desperation. tsk tsk.. shame on them. giving teaching a bad name.
4. Comment by kudo
17/May/2007 at 4:14 am
happy teacher’s day. belated.
5. Comment by Najah
17/May/2007 at 6:17 am
“The Danish People’s Party or DFP, the far-right movement that unofficially props up the weak centre-right government of the prime minister, Anders Fogh Rasmussen, is on the warpath. A couple of DFP politicians compared the headscarf to the Nazi swastika. One described the prospective MP as “brainwashed”.”
Eeeeeeee… They are so scared of the tudung weiii…
6. Comment by wanshana
18/May/2007 at 2:04 pm
Dear Idlan,
Hi. Have been a silent (but quite consistent) reader of your blog all these while.
Yep – I totally agree with you, especially on what was written in the first para.
I’m still wondering if the day would eventually come for me (if ever!) to really deserve the title “Cikgu”…
Take care!
PS1 – I’ve put a link to your blog from mine. Hope you don’t mind.
PS2 – Hmmm…we’ve got a mutual friend, I see…
7. Comment by eddycute
19/May/2007 at 9:01 am
PSJ!!! (takut tak? hee hee)
8. Comment by kudo
20/May/2007 at 11:11 pm
how come your blog is quiet? you footie fan, you.
9. Comment by Idlan
21/May/2007 at 10:43 am
Kak Shana, I think our mutual friend has spoken, haha.
Ahem Kudo. It’s not what you think.
10. Comment by Anuar
21/May/2007 at 11:49 am
she’s in mourning kot. Or she’s dating. Can’t be anything else.
11. Comment by Idlan
21/May/2007 at 12:50 pm
Thank you for all the insinuations Anuar. A simple “I miss you Idlan” would have sufficed, although perhaps not quite as fun.
12. Comment by Anuar
22/May/2007 at 8:08 am
kena control macho la. mana boleh trumpet that around?
13. Comment by Kak Julie
24/May/2007 at 12:56 am
Assalamualaikum Idlan,
I’ve been reading your blog ever since we created Srikandi blog. Somehow I think you are very similar to Sister Asmaa. We need a lot of teachers like you. I’m concern about the condition of our school systems (in Malaysia and in my own back yard, Silver Spring, MD). I recently attended the Award night at my son’s school — out of about 40 outstanding students, not one brown/black face was seen, although the school is about 40% of the school population is African-American. It’s seems that a whole generation of black kids are missing. I thought about the Malay kids, my nieces and nephews and Srikandis and Srikandas, puteras and puteris, how are they faring? As the world get smaller and the Indians and Chinese are rising, how are we competing in the flat world?
We are all teachers and students.